(un)Happy Birthday to me..

Aneh yah... dimana-mana orang sukacita, seneng-seneng kalo ada yang ulang tahun, tapi ini, malah sedih, menyendiri kyk sapi *ehh hehehehe...

Bukan maksud utnuk ngga ngehargain berkat yang Tuhan uda beri, tapi memang isi luar ma dalem masih daging manusia.

Ulang tahun yang seharusnya dirayain ceria, tapi tuk tahun ini guwe memilih untuk ngga ngerayainnya sama skali.

People said that money cannot buy you love or smile or fun. Well sorry, orang yang bisa bilang kyk gitu, mungkin tiap hari ada isi uang di kantongnya. Karna dia ga bisa ngerasain gimana rasanya ga bisa nyenengin orang laen..

Ya, gw memang tipenya suka nyenengin orang lain, malah bahkan lupa ma diri sendiri. Tapi dengan kondisi gw skrg yg kyk gini, apa mesti gw jadi yang egois. Ga mikirin ada org lain di dunia ini slain gw?!!

Terkadang di dalam usaha gw mo tidur aja tuh jadi susah. Knp? karna ngerasa smua mimpi2 gw bisa jadi sia-sia. No wonder, i recently often think that, maybe, just maybe, i should wake up at all..

Silly yak, stupid lah mpe punya pikiran kyk gitu,, tapi yah gimanaaa??

Tahun ini memang tahun yang bikin sesek napas. Starting dari yang namanya hubungan asmara (wasiiikk istilahnya hehehe), mpe ke kerjaan yang actually smuanya beres, tapiii,,kok gunung es tetep aja beku yah?!!....

I know i'm not like this, but hell!! it driving me nuts!!!

Well, i guess i'll try to enjoy my un-happy event ini, di kota sepi yang sedikit lagi ramai ini...




P.E.A.C.E.

Againts All Odds

How can I just let you walk away,
just let you leave without a trace
When I stand here taking every breath with you, ooh
You're the only one who really knew me at all

How can you just walk away from me,
when all I can do is watch you leave
Cos we've shared the laughter and the pain,
and even shared the tears
You're the only one who really knew me at all

So take a look at me now,
'cos there's just an empty space
And there's nothing left here to remind me,
just the memory of your face
Take a look at me now,
'cos there's just an empty space
And you coming back to me
is against all odds and that's what I've got to face

I wish I could just make you turn around,
turn around and see me cry
There's so much I need to say to you,
so many reasons why
You're the only one who really knew me at all

So take a look at me now,
'cos there's just an empty space
And there's nothing left here to remind me,
just the memory of your face
Take a look at me now,
'cos there's just an empty space
But to wait for you,
well that's all I can do and that's what I've got to face
Take a good look at me now,
'cos I'll still be standing here
And you coming back to me is against all odds
That's the chance I've got to take, oh, oho

Just take a look at me now
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Gw Kapan Yak?

Gara-gara obrolan tengah malem jelang bareng kawan2 gw dr Mission on Bike (MoB) krn ada yg brencana mo nikah, eh jd kepikiran (lagi) soal nikah..

Hmmm..
Memang sih tahun ini ga ada di plan gw untuk masuk ke jenjang itu..
Apalagi tahun ini memang tahun penuh tantangan..tahunnya badan pada ambruk n mental lagi ngdrop..

She told me, yakin tapi realistis..
Nah kalo dihubungin ke sini, yah memang mesti kyk gitu sih..

Jangankan mikirin nikah, rekonsiliasinya aja msh tersendat. Blm lagi soal sumber dana, ato at least soal degree...beeuuhhhh!!pussiiingg!!

Inget kata Pdt. Simanungkalit ke gw, "Di Indonesia itu beda sama di Amerika sana. Di sini, blm bisa liat pengalaman dia atas gelar." Tp yg paling menohok adalah "Pak Pendeta cuma bisa doakan 3 hal buat kamu: 1. Get a degree, 2. Make some money, 3. Get Married."

Hhhmmmm...memang sih gtu keadaan di sini, blm bisa liat skill over degree ato bahkan over relative (nepotism).


Dulu di tahun 2010 gw anggep sebagai tahun yang paling mengagumkan,,banyak hal special terjadi.
Masuk 2011 mpe akhir, runyam!! Dan di tahun ini,,,jegeeerr!!!!

Kalo di bikin grafik tuh bukannya naek, eh malah turun x_X.

Tp memang bener sih, apalagi kalo uda merasa banyak tuntutan.. Mesti liat jauh di depan!! (Jd nyanyi "mau di bawa kemana" "̮ ƗƗɐƗƗɐƗƗɐ "̮ ƗƗɐƗƗɐƗƗɐ "̮)

Plan musti dibikin and dikejar targetnya..

Tantangan, halangan, cobaan pasti ada..mesti bisa di overcome nih!!


Dan targetnya adalah 2014 (ato 2013), i must walk the aile with her.. Yakin dan Percaya!! AmEn...


P.E.A.C.E.
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If not you then there's no one else..

Mungkin yg baca judul postingan gw kali ini cuma bisa geleng-geleng ato apa tuh istilah skrang? *tepokjidat,,nah tu dia. Ato apalah sgala bentuk mengasihani gw.

But,,that's what i feel, what i wanted blogs.

Postingan ini bukan hal2 yang laen n ga jauh2 dari urusan hati "̮ ƗƗɐƗƗɐƗƗɐ "̮ ƗƗɐƗƗɐƗƗɐ "̮.
It's again and always about her, seseorang yang memang istimewa dlm hidup maupun hati gw.

Sesosok yang cantik yang bisa slalu bikin gw galau, resah maupun gelisah (wahahaha lebay yak) hehehe just like her.. Lebay, tp gw kangen jdnya ma lebaynya dia -_-*.

Balik lagi knp bisa bgtu tu judul, u may say i'm loyal, u may say i'm pathetic, or u even may say i'm stupid.

But, that's my decisions. And i'm planning of doing that.

Girls may come and go, but once i laid my eyes on you at that day, i'ved fell n just knew that you are the one for me.

Kepedeankah gw? Well time will tell..



mavtpqer


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Sorry for the Stupid Things

Sometimes we wish for the better
When we have it good as it gets
Sometimes the grass isn't greener
As soon as we find out, we forget
Sometimes a fool doesn't know he's a fool
Sometimes a dog, he don't know he's a dog
Sometimes I do stupid things to you
When I really don't mean it at all

chorus

Sometimes a man is gon' be a man
Its not an excuse, its just how it is
Sometimes a wrong, don't know that they wrong
Sometimes the strong, ain't always so strong
Sometimes a girl is gon' be a girl
She don't want to deal with all the drama in your world
God knows I don't mean to give it to you
So girl, I'm sorry for the stupid things
I wish I didn't do but I do

Ohh
Oh no
Ohh

v 2
Sometimes I wish I was smarter
Wish I was a bit more like you
Not making stupid decisions made at the last minute
You live to regret when its through
Well sometimes a fool, doesn't know he's a fool
And sometimes a dog, he don't know he's a dog
But sometimes I do stupid things to you
When I really didn't mean it at all

chorus

Sometimes a man is gon' be a man
Its not an excuse, its just how it is
Sometimes a wrong, don't know that they wrong
Sometimes the strong, can't always be strong
Sometimes a girl, is gon' be a girl
She don't want to deal with all the drama in your world
God knows I don't mean to give it to you
So girl, I'm sorry for the stupid things
I wish I didn't do but I do

Bridge

Sometimes a fool doesn't know he's a fool
And sometimes a dog, he don't know he's a dog
But sometimes I do stupid things to you
When I really didn't mean it at all
At all . . .at all

chorus x 2

Sometimes a man is gon' be a man
Its not an excuse, its just how it is
Sometimes a wrong, don't know that they wrong
Sometimes the strong, ain't always so strong
Sometimes a girl, is gon' be a girl
She don't want to deal with all the drama in your world
God knows I don't mean to give it to you girl
So girl I'm sorry for the stupid things
I wish I didn't do but I do
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